Every question I ever had about HPV (almost)

What is the likelihood it will give me cancer? What is the likelihood the virus will go dormant if I’m healthy? What is the likelihood it will come back? When might it come back? What can I do to ward it off? Is there medicine you can take once you have HPV? How did I … Continue reading Every question I ever had about HPV (almost)


Ma & pa & HPV

I told my mother that I had HPV minutes after I found out; she was the first call I made after hanging up with the doctor. I remember feeling like I was confessing a terrible mistake, and wondering what it was like for her to hear, “Mom, I have to tell you something.” I repeated … Continue reading Ma & pa & HPV

Kombucha o’clock

One of the primary topics I researched when I was first diagnosed with HPV was how and why the virus might come back after going dormant. I read that it had to do with your immune system, that deficiencies could lead to a reactivation of the virus. Those with poor immune systems were most at-risk … Continue reading Kombucha o’clock

Getting sick is not your fault

“Getting sick is not your fault.” This is a phrase I read on an HPV forum. As I read it, I could feel myself trying desperately to have it bring some comfort, alleviate some guilt, but it didn’t. If it’s not my own fault I got HPV, whose is it? B would tell me similar … Continue reading Getting sick is not your fault

Telling the boyfriend

In the moment, I didn’t put enough thought into how I would tell B about my HPV. With little concern for what he would be going through on the other end of the line, I sent him quick and sporadic texts as I got and missed the initial call from my doctor and after she … Continue reading Telling the boyfriend

A medical recap

How it begins: A routine Pap smear. You go every year so that you can keep getting refills for your birth control prescription. You’ve had Paps a few times before, and this time is the same as all the rest.   A few weeks later: A call from the doctor that says your Pap results … Continue reading A medical recap

Why why why

There is an abundance of information about HPV accessible online, so why bother creating more?   The information available isn’t the information I was looking for when I was first diagnosed. I wanted to know how people had sex after they’d been diagnosed--the literal things they did and didn’t do. I wanted to know the … Continue reading Why why why