Ma & pa & HPV

I told my mother that I had HPV minutes after I found out; she was the first call I made after hanging up with the doctor. I remember feeling like I was confessing a terrible mistake, and wondering what it was like for her to hear, “Mom, I have to tell you something.” I repeated … Continue reading Ma & pa & HPV

Kombucha o’clock

One of the primary topics I researched when I was first diagnosed with HPV was how and why the virus might come back after going dormant. I read that it had to do with your immune system, that deficiencies could lead to a reactivation of the virus. Those with poor immune systems were most at-risk … Continue reading Kombucha o’clock

Getting sick is not your fault

“Getting sick is not your fault.” This is a phrase I read on an HPV forum. As I read it, I could feel myself trying desperately to have it bring some comfort, alleviate some guilt, but it didn’t. If it’s not my own fault I got HPV, whose is it? B would tell me similar … Continue reading Getting sick is not your fault

Telling the boyfriend

In the moment, I didn’t put enough thought into how I would tell B about my HPV. With little concern for what he would be going through on the other end of the line, I sent him quick and sporadic texts as I got and missed the initial call from my doctor and after she … Continue reading Telling the boyfriend

A medical recap

How it begins: A routine Pap smear. You go every year so that you can keep getting refills for your birth control prescription. You’ve had Paps a few times before, and this time is the same as all the rest.   A few weeks later: A call from the doctor that says your Pap results … Continue reading A medical recap

Why why why

There is an abundance of information about HPV accessible online, so why bother creating more?   The information available isn’t the information I was looking for when I was first diagnosed. I wanted to know how people had sex after they’d been diagnosed--the literal things they did and didn’t do. I wanted to know the … Continue reading Why why why